Tessla

yeah well soo seem'ed like it took forever .and was boring.but yet it had its bright sides/...yeah so we had activity day today that was cool becosue i got to see ms Karen . yeah we have to get coffee tommow.. yeah i deff cant wait.yeah soo i seen nate and alysha and a bunch of other people i really use to hang out with ..yeah i actually really kinda miss youth group. but o'well i'm really hungary.. that sucked that brianna had a ap exam all day ./.i didnt get to see her at all ..i feel bad becosue i took katie and alyssa and laura with me but i kinda ditched them to hang out with ms Karen but o;well i didnt actually tell them was goin to hang out with them they just said they wanted to go so i got them a ticket so yeah ...o'well anyways i have to go tto a consert thios friday with katie some fucking emo band..that sucks but she really want's me to go and quintin will probably just skate anyways so i guess i'll go. yeah well im starving so ,

yeah ok well i miss my sammy wammy its so weird ..like i know that things will never be the same but i really miss her like crazy..its soo weird.....she was my bestest friend and then one day shes not..its funny how things end up ......

ok well i am at quintins and he is in the shower i could go and yeah but his parents are here and his grandma is so that suxx... yeah work suxxed today but i got subway so its all cool....um yeah l8ter

hi

um i hate you live journal..i maid new words today in scrabble.. they are kool
i would tell you but but you would start saying them so whats the point of them being mine....yeah well this is gay and the only reason i did it was sam told me what to say so im goin fishin... l8ter

ahh bored.

so well i am hyper like i am on my 6th cup of coffee...


what the hell is up with josh and sam deleting their lj ....gosh loser..... haha i love you though sammy wammy...yeah well so sam you almost got hit by a car that would of been sad....well you shouldnt be outside at 1 alone you could get kiddnaped and raped..that would be sad and josh that was really assholic haha to say about her getting hit by a car she didnt even say anything to you so ahhh ./. so well sarah .. o sarah ...hi i miss you....ha well i am out l8ter E> love

Tessla

the only thing in mi life thats good is josh.. thats the only relationship i can look at and know how lucky i am..

wow man "o"" man i am left out agin ....what the hell so well sam isnt lucky to have me ......thats sad well it isnt sad it just herts my feelings . imean gosh me and sam are like best freinds and but the only thing thats good in her life is josh wow i must be fukked up to not be good....wow its funny how just a little sentance can make you so sad a depressed but o ' well she has josh the only good thing in her life .. im out..

ok well i just got donhe talking to sam and her and michala are like buddy buddy now so i am like fuck that .. yeeah well man i never want to come to florida agin i hate hate hate hate it ..ahh i want i dont know but i guess me and sam are still best freinds but i dont know what to do about michala i aint going to mess with her or talk about her becosue thats just lame ya know... but o'well what to do ..i dont know ( shrooms ) ahhh

beautiful.... anyways so nick wow i guess i dont know i aint going to say anything but let him do what he wants to do i guess ....yeah well christmas tommowo ...so brianna i am bored and junk i hope you are cool in junk like the hole michala think i heard you said (( oh )) wich i know means thATS fucking noice yeah well i dont know what to do ....i havent worn your fat boys in a while i will wear them tommowo .....yeah well ahh dun dun dun like i cant loose sam becosuse the card said that sometime in the next few months i would fuck something up with someone i really fucking care about and regret it beacouse the person will be really important to me so yeah and i know they were talking about me and sam ....but i dont know so done want to go back i want to stay hear becosuer i guess its good to get away from stuff and it helps .. yeah ..well im out.......

Ahh i am excited about my hot emo guys they are hot thanks sammy wammy .. yeah well anyways just wanted to say thanks and hi paris ...i will call you when i get back to florida ...

yeah well its a wendneday and well life is well boring.. my grandma acused me of taking a knife into one of the bedrooms she didnt beleive me maybe its becouse i couldnt stop laughing but i dont know,,, finally dad told her he took it in their and she felt bad so she bought me windys...yum i guess. all i have been eating is fast food....i guess i am really going to be a fat boy after all right brianna.. ha yeah i just did loundry...i went out and played in the snow with me old dog ...he is getting old and can barely walk .. he will die soon then my life will remain sad.. yeah well my so called brother is putting my grandmas big hats on he is soo not the coool gay by retarted....yeah we are going to my other grandmas l8ter we are going to the movies and out to eat.. something like meet the fockers...yeah . i went to good will ..i was fun i bought clothes. yeah well so well did you know stars died i cried so bad but a new one is born but its like as we speek a star dies thats so fucking sad and depressing you dont even know....yeah well yeah well dun dun i hate the hole live journal thing it anoys me becosue if you dont write in it everybody is all like why dont you write in it huhuhuh i am like becouse i dont want to but you know.. i went and seen napolin dynomite it was funny as shit.. even though me and jade talked the hole time well yeah and then tori seen ys we were like man and then we found a barbie...well jade did but she gave it to me i will keep it for ever,,, yeah well their was some hottys at the mall ..buyt i tried a dance thing i couldnt do ot even though jade said i was almost doing it i just needed to go FASTER WELL yeah i am out ./....

Star

ok well its been what 2 days and something hours since i left florida and i have done a great deal of thinking . i will just be sitting hear and be lost in my own questions.. like why did god create the earth how did he do it i dont get it . their must be a perpose why we are hear. yeah everybody says god put us hear for a reason the what is it..i dont get it.. and i think would my life be better if i lived hear ..well i dont want to go back to florida yeah i miss maybe 2 people but i think i could just turn around and leave them ...yeah well enough about that ...its like ahh soo depressing... man i should of just told eric i liked him on friday why didnt i ohh i know i am chicken shit of his remeark he minght make but i dont know ....life is a mystery a big one......yeah well its been a while since i wrote in this thing ...well maybe i like it becouse its likle you can tell people how you feel without haveing to express it through feelings or tell them personally. but i dont know i sit at this compuiter and look at all the crap i type and i know no body cares what i think ... not 1 person out their and dont say you do becosue you dont i dont even know why i am still typing i want to stop but i cant i dont know well like bob says off of slc punk its like a giant took a big shit and shit out the earth..

OK well as these days of past that i havent been writing well yesterday me and kyle broke up and roy started talking to mee agin...(ahh) yeah ......and ahh kyle said i suck what the heck thats not even right ahh grr what evr if you know me you would understand..ahh i decided t ostop dating ..jen i took your advise thank you..
and yeah last night i got into a fight with me sister and mom and iwas punching everything but i refused to put blink on..you peeps should be proud..well sorry sam i havent been writing in this thing that much..lol and yeah sam is mad at me ...when she is mad at me it feels like half my world is crashing...and sam i am jelouse of brianna ..i dont know its like ahh i want you too my self i dont know...sorry lol..its ahh i know how alysha felt in a way but not all the way ya know...ahh brianna was being mean today...i was like ahh what evr..i htink my mom is about to take my internet away um beocuse i a mon it too much and its my life...lol yeah tear..and the whole emo thing ahh grr sam change yo screen name..lol ahh i got to hug jason today twice iwas like ahh excited i love jaosn he is great...lol ahh i miss jordan .....i want to go to the foot ball game to see him and what not but i odnt know ..like ahh sam wont go with me she and brianna like ahh we are going to the thing on friday i waslike yaok what evr i mean ahh i want to go but like i dont know..man ahh sha wing..anywayz i am gettitng braces or something like that 2 mowo ..dun dun dun !!!!i odnt know what color too get ooh no panic..lol ahh man i like ahh odnt know well l8ter......

(Recent song in head!)

I love my notebook.....
i maid it up.
i was looking for my notebook and i just started singing it...lol its gr8t.

(recent thing i was mad at)

my sister for not helping me clean her room..)

( recent person i talked too)

Jason

(Recent subject with him)

8 th grade memorys aww they were the best jason ever ...<3
thats what maid my 8th grade fun..

XoXoXo *(Tessla)*

ahh grr i odnt know anymore how i feel like i feel lost and depresses and sad and then happy i guess my mood changes like every min (lol nice)...like whoa....ok sammy wammy when lizards take over the world um i will totally break me blink cd..lol so i guess that means they never will..lol yeah well even if they did i probly wouldnt break them anyways ..like whoa i have listin to them since like forever today their hasnt been a moment where i wasnt listing too them anh ahh i dont know,.,,omg(osh) like i was totally excited to see blink on mad tv ahh you now you loved it too like whoa ....ahh tom delonge iss soo hat ahh you dont even know ....ahh grr i want to like have 1 day with him and it would be the best time ever in my life like sha....wow like ahh i wrote your song in my notebook the 1 like cross my heart and hope to die..ahh i loved it...wow we soo need to reant that movie um sha becosue its the only 1 tom is in and ahh sha...well um yeah i really want to start a band so we arnt totally computer freak...it would give us something to do.....(my dog , nice dog bending over..( if you droped your keys you would bend over too...) omgosh tom was 17 when he started the band....i did some homework on him today...sha..well um l8ter....

Ahh today was great like whoa well at the end it was ....like me and nick are friends again and so are me and josh and its great because i thought we were all never going to talk ever and i was sad but then josh called and was like sorry ahh i was happy....sam aww i love you so much Sammy Wammy we both got each other through this...its great....thanks for helping me with my journal i would of never figured it out..lol i would be lost with out you skid....word- skid- nice -true....sha you are a amazing friend lol we wouldnt of had are spit bottle...lol we need to make another 1 kid like and hide it so your grandma dosn't throw it away...lol well love ya all kids....L8ter *Tessla*

Ahh grrrr..


What ever Tarzan makes mee soo mad and ahhh i want to run away from everything like whoa that would be great...
Ahh grrr he makes mee so mad i cant stand him ahh grr what evr ahh he cant hand out with me beocsue i bring him down by listing to blink 182 what ever...

in the car ijust cant wait
to pick you up on are very first date
is it cool if i hold your hand?
is it wrong if i think its lame to dance?
do u like my stupid hair?
would you guess that i didnt know what to wear?
im just scared of what you think
you make me nervouse so i really cant eat

lets go
dont wait
this nights almost over

honest lets make this night last forever
forever and ever
lets make this last forever
forever and ever lets make this last forever

when you smile i melt inside
im not worthy for a minute of your time
i really wish it was only me and you
im jelouse of everybody in the room
please dont look at me with htose eyes
please dont hint that your capable of lies
i dread the thought of are very first kiss
a target that im probly gonna miss

lets go
dont wait
this nights almost over
honest lets make this night last forever
forever and ever

lets make this last forever
forever and ever lets make this last forever****<3*****

Ahh grr stupid lj thing makes mee soo mad....( my dog nice dog bending over... well if i droped my keys id bend over too....) Ahh grr lol soo bored....Ahh are you ahh feelin alright....ok what do u guys think about sperm banks? like ahh i just wanted to know ya know..like i dont know what i think about it...like whoa...i dont know anyways ahh like the whole thing with roy iam really lost he is cool and what not but like evrybody has something too say and like ahh grr lost ( walking through the grass another blade next to you from the ground as the wind does pass i notice as you feel the breath of my shout your words are kind the kind that repeatedly say no but thats allright im older than you so i"ve got time whats that you say reach out your hand theres a black shadow on my wall and as i look into my mind i can see that guys are a waste of time we"ve all seen the bridge a broken seam and a guy on one side you think your words will work they only work when you lay down and close you eyes i thought of all the lines all the right ones used at all the wrong times but thats allright depressions just a sarcastic state of mind i dont want to live alone with my broken dreams of you.)Ahh ok l8ter....